I’ve never been one for New Years Resolutions. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve made them, a lot of them, but never once have I kept to them.
During this time of year I often feel too much pressure to succeed in a goal I’ve set myself. Now I’m not sure if I’m alone in this or not, but I do not perform well under pressure. In school I was always far better at the coursework and essays than I was at the exams. I’d revise and study until my eyes felt like they were bleeding, but come to that dreaded day when I’d have to sit down and remember everything I’d learnt that year, I crumbled.
The same goes for new years resolutions. First and foremost – I’m a smoker of 8 years. Disgusting I know, smoking since 14, but its part of who I am, like it or lump it. For several years I have made the decision come new years that I would give up. My shocking lack of will power has always meant that I have failed, and come the end of January, I’m still smoking. But not only do I blame my lack of will power, but also the fact that because everybody knows I have made this decision I feel more pressured into succeeding. Never a good combination for me. Most people will probably say that the thought of disappointing their friends and family by failing would give them the extra push to follow through. I am the complete opposite. The extra pressure I feel from everyone around me just convinces me to give up. It’s probably a complete cop-out on my part, but I’d rather fail sooner rather than later. I would delve further into this, but I don’t want to bore you on my first post. So moving swiftly on…
This year, I didn’t make any resolutions. I didn’t see the point. My boyfriend and I are still smoking, I haven’t decided to lose any weight despite the fact I’d like to, I haven’t even harped on about ‘the new me’ (Which to be fairly honest if you have ever said that, we can’t be friends!) And even though my new year is currently goal-less and I have nothing to work towards, it’s shaping up to be a pretty fantastic year so far. I know we’re only on the sixth day, but a girl can be content can’t she?
So far, in the short six days since new years, my boyfriend has already found a new job. It’s far better than the one he’s currently in and most importantly, he’s already so much happier. This in turn makes me crazy happy that he’s no longer in a dead end job, working for idiots that make him miserable. A new job is quite an achievement for day six of the New Year, wouldn’t you say? Personally, I haven’t achieved anything yet – apart from finding him the job, I do take credit for that. I haven’t lost 1lb in weight and I don’t have a new outlook on life – but this new change in our lives is sure to be something great. Once he’s settled and things are running smooth, we can finally look into moving closer to his family. It’s something we’ve been discussing for a while and this positive start to the year means that it’s pushing us to do something about it.
The whole thing got me thinking… by simply sailing into the new year with no pressure and no new goals to work towards, things have seemed to come naturally. A new job may seem a small change to some, but for us, it’s a huge step. I didn’t set out into 2012 expecting or hoping things to change, I had decided to just let life come as it may and I would go along with it.
So far, I'm liking this outlook. Resolutions are the worlds way of allowing us to set ourselves targets in the hopes that it will make the New Year far better than the last one. Last year was pretty brilliant for me, my baby girl turned one, I was surrounded by family and friends and I was pretty happy. If I’m being honest, if there is something you want to change about yourself, or your life, why wait for the clock tower to ring on the 31st December? Why not do it now? Make your own year better rather than waiting for a specific date to do so. If the first six months of your year is pretty shitty, then make the changes that will allow you to have a much better six months.
I’m hoping that 2012 is going to be just as good a year for me as 2011 was. If I ever feel the need to change something about myself or my life and I don’t do anything but moan about it – please refer me back to this post!
So that brings me to the end of my first blog. Opinions are all welcome and greatly appreciated. I am new to this remember, so any advice would be fantastic.
I hope all of your 2012’s are shaping up to be as great as you wanted to be – even if it is only the sixth day!